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I get too attached to people. Whether that's a good thing or a bad thing, I haven't decided yet. Right now it seems more of a good thing. I love my best friend Ashley and my amazing boyfriend Bill. They make me happier than the world and I would do anything for them. And I am surrounded by other caring friends who mean the world to me. Even just sitting around doing nothing with them makes me happy.

Then again there are the people I would just like to forget, yet they linger, unwanted. Occasionally haunting me when I turn around and think I see them out of the corner of my eye. I believe the problem is that I do get too attached to people but to people that don't care about me to the same degree. Yet in my mind I like to think that they do just to end up beaten and bruised, lying in my bed, crying my eyes out to emo love songs, until I get physically sick.

Its pathetic really. Lying there for days, depressed over someone who doesn't deserve it. But it's not just something that I can stop doing. And it happens repeatedly.

I keep building myself up for the let down.

And I worry that I'm doing it again. I pray that I'm not because I am truly happy right now. True I have my moments where I sink back into depressed emo bitch mode but everyone has bad days. But for the most part I love life.

I cant wait for the weekdays and I cant wait for weekends.